The pressure. Pain. Agony. Is enough to break the back of a camel.
I can't go back in time.
I can't change my decisions.
The only thing that soothes the stinging is music.
I relate to music better then I can relate to people.
Weird and Dark melodic tones... When the bow rubs against the
strings on a violin... Or the blues coming from a tenor saxophone.
It's playing my heart.
What I'm truly able to bring myself to feel...
Those sounds play the deep feelings words can't describe.
But for most of my days... I can't feel anything at all.
Numb to the world.
Numb to anything happy,positive, peaceful...
Overwhelming thoughts keep me awa