katykay92

The more I try to bring myself closer to him the more alone and indifferent I feel.

I just need to stop. We just need to stop. This heart is no good and neither is this situation we're putting ourselves in.

I just give me novacane or valium.

The pressure. Pain. Agony. Is enough to break the back of a camel.

I can't go back in time.

I can't change my decisions.

The only thing that soothes the stinging is music.

I relate to music better then I can relate to people.

Weird and Dark melodic tones... When the bow rubs against the

strings on a violin... Or the blues coming from a tenor saxophone.

It's playing my heart.

What I'm truly able to bring myself to feel...

Those sounds play the deep feelings words can't describe.

But for most of my days... I can't feel anything at all.

Numb to the world.

Numb to anything happy,positive, peaceful...

Overwhelming thoughts keep me away from everything.

I question everything. Motives. Sayings. What is a truth or a lie?

Everything.

I can't remember the last time I was happy on my own.

Nobody I've come across knows what this is like, nor

have any clue what I'm talking about.

My family and friends justify me as crazy and annoyingly depressed.

I can't argue with them.

I have no real purpose in life.

I honestly lie awake every night waiting for myself to pass on and fade away forever.

Thug means you don't have to say sorry to anyone!!